I, Nomad Monad, lost myself in the amusing mazes of the amazing muses. With apocalyptic vision and a longing for eternity as traveling companions, I set off to seek individuation in pursuit of autonomy; I lived on poetry and starlight and whatever the denizens of the infernal machine had left or thrown out. There IS a free lunch. I consistently found it—and I feasted while others merely ate. The soundtrack of my voyage was every beloved song ever downloaded to my soul. I set off for the celestial Zion, the name of an impermanent city never to be found on earth. I was sure I could, through continual movement and transience, leave behind the Babylon of striated complication and flow into the continual present of smooth space. But in the process, my hermeneutic dimension imploded. I found myself thirsting and stranded in a mirage; the mirage of absolute freedom. Even as I pursued the shimmering waters of this mirage, they receded before me until the longer I contemplated the ideal, the greater I became enslaved—and the greater grew my thirst . . . I tried to maintain a continuous line of flight, slaking my thirst and seeking escape through the virtual window of art and memory. I sought in this way to transcend the ontic redundancy of my own identity, but in so doing, I marginalized myself into utter misanthropic irrelevance and lost myself in multiplicities of bitterness. If it was not for the mercy of God, I would have shattered into irretrievable fragments. But by the grace of the Lord, I was able to find my way back into the data-driven quotidian banalities that pass for settled life and respectable citizenship. Now I am no longer a traveler. I am a plebeian with reveries born of philosophy, and I know that on this sin-cursed earth I have no continuing city. Life is less intense—but also more manageable now. The colors are muted, I get tired earlier; but I sleep and I dream and I still love that verdant music.
Beholding God’s marvelous color, shade,
Rustling textures, and million tones of green;
The organic beauty that He has made—
Do you think He wants us glued to the screen?
I share my mind and bare my soul to those travelers or ex-voyagers I esteem as worthy. I mistrust and shun the tyranny of the mediocre majority.
What, oh fellow student and fish in the school of life,
is your story?

Makes my heart hurt…like frustrated young dreams and the real life we settle for.
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